"tiRed wOrld" (2000)
Produced, Mixed and Performed by Todd Guilmette.
All songs written by Todd Guilmette except "Keep It Dark" written by Tony Banks, Phil Collins and Mike Rutherford.
Produced on the Fasttracker II modtracker.
Mixed in Sound Forge.
Vocals recorded at Dreadnaut Studios on a foockin' shite microphone!
Behind the Curve
Everything I want to do, I'm always behind the times
When I finally hear about it, I'm always at the end of the line
You can go and chart my progress, I'm the dot that's off the chart
I'm good at making music, but you can't really call it art
I'm just a little bit behind the curve
I've always been the late bloomer always the average size
I'm the weakest link on the chain, the one with the thinnest ties
I was always late on the starting block, never shoot high, shoot low
And when there's a change in my life, I'm always the last to know.
Is this a piece of my mind that’s fallen off
Staring at me from the ground
Crying to me in my elevated loft
It’s the most horrible sound
What part of me did I lose
Somewhere along the way
Is it a side of me that I refuse
To see the light of day
I lost myself in trying to live
I lost myself what I had to give
Can I rebuild and grow again
I lost myself in a tired world
There’s a piece of my mind that’s gone forever
I can never regain my trust
Even if I searched I think I would never
Pick up all the ash and dust
My compassion is burning in pain
My love is trying in vain
To save the only part of me
That wants to stay the same.
You say you're stuck in hell and you can't get anywhere
Well there is no magic spell to make you start to care
No I won't be the one who helps you get out of that place
Complacency and laziness brought you to your fall from grace
I am not your savior
You're the only one that can get you out of your lower ranks
Even if I gave you a leg-up, you wouldn't know how to say thanks
Get yourself together and cop a new attitude
Straighten up your style and don't fucking call me "dude"
Hell am I talking about, I don't know
I'm all up in your face screaming so
You think there's some kind of reason for it
Well here's one reason: I don't give a shit
Hell's that mean?
Fuck if I know!
So whenever someone gets on your case
Morons and jerk-offs all over the place
There's only one way I know to win the race
Grow some big brass cojones and get in their face like--
I'm just a static depiction of an empty shell
I've got nothing to offer, I've got nothing to sell
Why would anyone in their right mind want to be
Infatuated with a person like me
If I ever made the right decisions in my life
If I ever chose the right battles I should fight
I could never get a match started, make a light
Now I just take my blurry place in the night
I need someone to be my equal in all i want to do
I need someone by my side everything i want to go through
I need someone to be my other half, the half that was left out
Someone to tell me where to go and what this life's about
Someone once said I was someone worthwhile
They might see me walking by and give me a smile
One day he's gonna make it in something good
All that talent and how creative I bet he could
Potential is nothing without a push on the swing
With no stories to tell and no songs to sing
With a look of despair and loss in my eyes
I just walk away again and tell myself more lies
The futility of online relationships
You can get this close and yet not touch lips
Reach out for someone a half a world away
And yet not know where real desires lay
You can get attached to someone across the sea
But how close can it's-a-small-world-after-all be?
And if you finally meet but you find them a different man
Would you feel that the real world foiled your cybernetic plan?
I need to talk to someone, I gotta go online
I want to meet somebody, I think I'll go online
The advertisements say I can find a friend online
You think I could find myself a lover... online?
You can't see your lover and feel their breath
Can't smell the sex between you
Get close enough so that there are no secrets left
Fill up the space between you
I'd like to look inside your mind and tell you what I see
Just how you see yourself and how you see me
How you see the world around you and what is to come
What were we all before, what will we all become?
The secrets of the mind are locked up tight
All the best dreams and visions are just beyond sight
If we could access all our thoughts like a hard disk drive
Would we finally see the answers on how to stay alive?
Can I look inside and feel your mind?
I'd like to look inside your mind and play a little game
To see what part of you would change and what would stay the same
I'd give you all the confidence to succeed in this life
Sharpen all your natural skills to a well made knife
If I could play around with you and give you all you need
I'd sit back and watch you in the better life you'd lead
If I could see you happy, I think that would give me joy
I think I could get to you if I could see past this noise